My Rant for the Day

As of right now, i dont work. My boyfriend makes enough money to where i dont have to and we can still get by just fine. Which is a good thing being as 1: we own 1 car. 2: he leaves for work way before any other place opens. 3: we live to far for me to walk or bike to work. and 4:Its a small town and buses dont exsist here.

So for the past...6 months or so ive been a stay at home girlfriend, cooking, cleaning, taking care of the animals and just plain being bored out of my freakin mind. We live in an apartment building, and theres an old couple above us who are just about the rudest people i have ever met. Stomping around like 8 year olds throwing a temper tantrum and slamming there doors left and right and always, and i mean ALWAYS they have there TV full volumn...ugh...oh and if i even think to sneeze or cough, they go shitwild and start stomping on the ground and walls towards us...im sorry but if i was in my late 50's and living in an apartment still..id be embarassed and keeping the fuck quiet so nobody notices(no offence to whoever fits that profile but damn...i would at least hope your not idiots like them)

And as for the people who live across the way from us, well, geezy they sure do like to let everybody know what kind of music they listen to. Good for us the people who live above them are more fed up with it them me. I feel sorry for them, i can hear and feel it perfectly and i only have a smal portion of my wall connected to them! The girl who lives up there got really pissed last night cause this is going on the 4th night in a row, she just..totally blew up in there face about it and today there was someone from the office putting a notice on there door. So i unno, hopefully they get kicked out.

But yeah, lol other then that this town is nice. It's a military town(thats where the bf works, on the base) The weather is nice here, doesnt get to hot or cold..it does snow ever so often. This place would actually be perfect, you know, if i wasnt in a freakin apartment living next to idiots still.

My boyfriend keeps making these wierd demands. No more TV...ok no more tv, thats fine i only watch 1 show anyways(i gotta have my Lost, dont laugh lol.) its easy enough to download what i wanna watch, so fine, get rid of the tv.

We're gonna start going hiking, and learning how to survive in the wild!...ummm ok Mr. Techy Geek turned survivalist, where the hell did that come from? You never did a damn thing outside your whole life, and now you wanna start? Ok fine, whatever, some freash air will do me good and get me away from these idiots fora day.

We're gonna get some B.O.B.S(bug out bag for those who dont know, a bag you fill with crap you need for then the SHTF) and a big first aid kit, and some buckets stocked full of foods and a truck to lug it all around when we need to leave. Sure...why not...im still a firm believer of a Zombie Apocalypse.

We're gonna get some guns and go to the range every weekend and get really good at them! Again...why not..zombies are scary, id like to have a better chance at surviving.

Well im sure you get my point...my computer savvy boyfriend who always talked about having the most uptodate electronics and crap, has turned into a survivalist nut. Its all good, nothing wrong with wanting to protect your family i guess. But that kinda gets to my point, which i guess i should get to since you read this far into it(hellloooooo?? Anybody still there? You DID read this far into it right?)

Well my point...he's making all these demands and changes but yet he doesnt give a rats ass about the 3 fucking things i want in life. You know, the "girly" things. A marriage, a baby, and a house. I understand those things are expensive, but he keeps saying "I dont want a kid untill i can pay in cash for it and have a Collage Loan started up for it and a Car Loan started up for it and blah blah blah cash falling out of my ass"

Yeah well im sorry but, who the hell ever actually has the money for a kid? Unless you were born into a multimillionaire family, you just dont. Who the hell can every pay in cash for a house with lots of land? Unless you lucked out, hah. Marriage? Well court houses make that cheap and easy, so i unno his problem there.

Its been 4 years together now, and the way hes talking about having money before we do anything(but of course buying guns and hiking gear and a truck and pantrys full of canned food dont count.....~sigh~)i wont get anything i want untill lets see, ever....

And he calls me the materialistic one.

I never asked for anything other then those 3 things. I also dont want anything other then those 3 things, id be happy with just those 3 things. And yes, i know, i know, its expensive, but omg, dont deny me my wants and needs when your just happy as a pig in shit with all the crap your wanting out of life. Theres no room to compromise or anything, its all a "I work and you dont, Im the man and your not, I make the desisions and you dont" bullshit.
Yeah well...rereading this just reminded me of how pissed i am right now and i just dont think i can finish this rant. So if you read the whole thing, ~Cheers~ to you, and if you didnt understand a damn thing, welcome to my world, im still trying to figure out how he calls this a relationship when really, it seems im just his maid along for the ride. He insists he loves me and wants to be with me, well...time to start showing i say.