Busy, Busy, Busy

As the title suggests...I've been busy! I'm just tyring to figure out what I want to do.I'm still not sure what direction I want this blog to go into. I thought I did when I made it but now, I unno.
My boyfriend showed me this thing from the survivalist forum he's apart of. Its paracord(some strong tiny cord that supposedly holds like 550 lbs, but like I'm gonna go test that) bracelets and lanyards and all kinds of things. It's actually kinda fun, and easy too once you figure out how to do some macramé knots, you can make whatever you want out of it really. I've only made a couple bracelets, maybe when I get awesome at It I'll show some pics hehe.
Also, my sister and her bf and baby are moving today, and next Friday my brother and his family are moving. So I've been on and off through emails/phones seeing how things are going with all of that.
I finally got my own bf to see that we are DONE with apartments. Our lease is up in May and we're gonna go look at some houses with some small land for rent, anywhere between 1-5 acres. There's a really nice one up right now but It's to far away from May, The chances It will still be available ~sigh~ allwell, hopefully something better will pop up by then.
I had to have a long talk with him about me not getting what I want out of life and this relationship, and he got worried I was going to leave him so he agreed to go look at houses. Not really the way I wanted to get something, but I finally got through to him. I didn't threaten to leave, mind you, I guess he just saw how upset I was over this whole thing.
So, ok, being as its Friday I wont get to posting until Monday. So have a great weekend everybody, and give us some early luck with finding a house by May!! ~crosses fingers~

Some poems up

I posted 3 poems that i happened to have at poetry.com so i was able to get a few up. They are from my high school days so...eh kinda emoish lol. It was like...4 and over years ago. My favorite one is "The Flower". The other 2 i just figured I'd put up anyways, what can it hurt hehe. Let me know what you think.

The Flower

Here sits a flower
5 petals to it
The death of the son is heard
A petal falls down
With a faint crying sound
Leaving just 4
The death of the father
Soon comes to ear
Every one's left to mourn
Another petal falls down
Leaving 3 in a round
Hoping tomorrow it will be cured
The death of the sister soon draws near
As the mother is left alone
2 petals left and nothing seems right
As the mother soon becomes ill
The mothers time comes but not before her son
Has just enough time to be born
There's just 1 more petal
But look out your window
And they'll be a while field of flowers

Goddess

Goddess of thunder
bring the mist, raise hell, throw your fit
The Goddess of laughter
Is roaring with amazement
Verified your madness, with your lack of conduct
God of unyielding
God of unkempt
Bring your untouched sorcery
Preserve your greatness
The Goddess of perception is observing
But the Lolita of precise elegance
Is all she's surveying

Forgotten Days

The storms dieing slowly
But the rains still falling
The winds playing a sweet tune
It sounds like my name its calling
I want to go
But I know I should stay
It's getting closer and closer
The call of Belial each day
It's pulling me
It's beckoning me
The rains here to take me
Away from this world
Away from this pain
To take me back
To forgotten days